Searching for Baekhyun

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Author: ANONYMOUS
Recipient: baeksilisk
Title: Searching for Baekhyun
Word Counts: 16000 +
Side Pairing(s): Kyungsoo/Kai
Rating: PG-13
Warning(s): mentions of suicide, third person/first person POV
Disclaimer:The celebrities' names/images are merely borrowed and do not represent who the celebrities are in real life. No offense is intended towards them, their families or friends. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. No money is being made from this fictional work. No copyright infringement is intended.
Summary: Chanyeol is no immortal but he is living in different worlds and in different times. Sometimes he sees the world in black and white, but mostly in full colors. He remembers them all but amongst all the memories, the realms, the worlds or even those times that existed where there is no time, there is one memory that swerves its way into a different one; a unique path - away from the others. There is that one moment where he failed to show his love and it sparked the fire to start the end of every beginning of every world.
Author's Note: This journey has been great. Thank you to the mods for their undying patience. All my love is dedicated to my forever supportive beta – my sister, my best-friend, and my coffee buddy – you know who you are and really, thank you so much! Also, thank you to Z for her continuous support and for encouraging me to finish this fic! The problems and detours that I experienced – the both of you never left me. Lastly, I am so sorry my recipient for I think I haven’t written what you had in mind but I hope you’ll like this. My Name is Memory!AU


(I am Park Chanyeol and my greatest love is Byun Baekhyun)

Comments

SPOT HOLY SHXIT

[baeksilisk.livejournal.com]

*breathes heavily* IT'S OUT OH MY GOD DKJSHDSAKJDHA AND YOU CHOSE MY FAVORITE PROMPT I AM ;;;;;;; PLS EXCUSE ME WHILE I READ THIS AND DIE OVER AND OVER BEFORE I FINALLY GET THE STRENGTH TO COMPOSE A COHERENT COMMENT THANK

I'M DONE AN D I AM NOT CALM

[baeksilisk.livejournal.com]

HELLO HELLO WRITER I'M GLAD YOU CHOSE THE MY NAME IS MEMORY!AU PROMPT ;; It's my favorite and I've been wanting a my name is memory!au for quite a while now but the odds were never in my favor buT NOW IT'S HERE IT'S HERE JSAKJDLSAJSDJ /CLINGS TO UR LEGS

LEMME JUST QUOTE MY FAVORITE STUFF HERE

I am Chanyeol and my greatest love is Baekhyun.
I LOST IT FROM HERE OH MY GOD AT THIS POINT I WAS ALREADY BLEEDING

Chanyeol swears he will murder Sehun. He can get away with murder because he’s a lawyer and he topped the bar, concealing the crime would be trouble-free.
OMG OMG HAHAHAHAHHAHA YES WOW MAN I LOVE SMART!CHANYEOL, ESPECIALLY SMARTANDMURDEROUS!CHANYEOL

"I never asked God for anything. This is the only time I'm going to wish for something."
“I will do everything but please, give Baekhyun to me.” WAILS REALLY LOUDLY

"And I’ll do good forever because I’m sure I will love him forever. I will always love the guy in seat no. 17." CHRIST I AM ON THE FLOOR NSJKADHSAK

“A-a-a-a”

“So, is that your thing? The A-a-a-a-?”

“A-a-a-a-”

“Youre funny, I like you.” Baekhyun smiles at him. “Do you like me too?”
FUC HUCJDSKFLSK FU KCING SMOOTH BYUN BAEKHYUN

IF I COULD QUOTE THE WHOLE ANNIVERSARY SCENE HERE I FLIPPING WOULD HOLY SHIT JJSAHFJKSAHDJKAJDKA I'M ROLLING ON THE FLOOR IT'S SO CUTE FUCK YOU DOCTOR CHANYEOL FOR SINGING THAT OVERPLAYED SONG THINKING OUT LOUD YOU COULD'VE CHOSEN ANOTHER SONG

But it was also the year I prayed to God that He should end my life. Because losing the one I love was a pain so excruciating I felt like I knew the feeling of dying.
DEEP ;; I feel so bad for Chanyeol because by being immortal, he would have to watch his loved ones die before him ;__________;

Days passed, I grew closer with the talkative intern and something in me had changed, I was getting more and more attached until I realized I was in love. Sadly, it was too late. And I lost Baekhyun to an accident.
*flops on the floor*

“I write songs for someone, hoping one day that someone will realize that the songs I’m writing are all for him.”

But I guess he’ll never know.
(ノಠ ∩ಠ)ノ彡( o°o)

“I take pride in my rings, I design them with my own creativity. I spend sleepless nights and you’re telling me you’re getting rid of my rings? My rings?”
Baekhyun talks about the rings as if they're his children ojj ym god byun

“My name is Byun Baekhyun and you’re invited to our wedding” He smiles and raises his locked hands with Chanyeol proving their together.
BYUN YOU SLY ASS

...every night of countless replays of his adventures with Baekhyun isn’t about treasuring him as a best friend, every time he promises he’ll be with Baekhyun for eternity and whispering I love you’s isn’t because he treats him as best friend but because he is indeed, irreversibly, insanely in love with him.
MY HEART IS IN SMITHEREENS THX A LOT AUTHOR

I didn’t want to listen, it was complicated. A mixture of unwanted feelings were clouding my heart. My mind was in a daze and it was beyond painful. Do you love him, Baek? Does he love you? Because I do.

“I love you.” he wasn’t supposed to hear it, I wasn’t supposed to say it. It was not part of the plan.

“I love you too, Chanyeol”

REQUITED LOVE!!!!!!!!! THANK!!!!!!!

RE: I'M DONE AN D I AM NOT CALM

[baeksilisk.livejournal.com]

(wow LJ thanks for slapping in my face the fact that I am a talkative ass i just have a lot of feels)

My birthday is next month, I really want a rose.

Sure, Baek.

But I never gave him one.

Yeol, our anniversary is in two months. Did you know there’s a newly opened flower shop two blocks away from your home?

I didn’t know.

I still never gave him one.

DANG PARK IS IT THAT HARD TO GET YOU R ASS UP AND WALK TO THE FUCKING NEAREST FLOWER
SHOP AND BUY THE BOY SOME GOD DAMN ROSES Y U NO BUY HIM ROSES

Let us erase all the worlds--- as if they never existed. I hope you'll write again - this time it'll be perfect. Because this time I'll make sure I'll exist to make you smile, to make you laugh, to make your world forever in rainbows and butterflies, I'll make sure this time, you'll feel my love – even if I start from scratch.

“It’s nice to meet you Byun Baekhyun. Let’s be friends. My name is Park Chanyeol.”

OMYGOD HOYL DSJJSAJSA BAEKHYUN COULDN'T REMEMBER :--C BUT IT'S OKAY because it means they're gonna restart, right? They're going to have a new life together a life where CHANYEOL ISN'T AN ASS WHO REFUSES TO BUY JUST ONE GODDAMN FLOWER but it's okay!!!!! it's okay!!!!!! BREATHES HEAVILY I AM CALM

I'm happy that in the end, Chanyeol had the chance to make things right even though they've gone through a lot of pretty dark stuff and all those years of seeking after Baekhyun in every life he has lived will finally pay off ;; I've read a lot of multiple lives!aus but this is by far the best for me hehehe <3

I'm really sorry, author, for not being able to construct a coherent comment ;; when I comment in stuff it's just 99% dskaljdslkd and 1% review ;o; I really liked the way this was written! and I quite recognize your style from somewhere but I can't remember where u___u I cried somewhere along the way because this really!!!!!! was!!!!!! so beautifully written sldjsakldas your words can move people and I'm very glad you've chosen to write this prompt, I'm glad mods assigned you to be my writer ;______;

I'm looking forward to the reveals so that I could know who you are AND SHOWER YOU WITH MY LOVE <3333 until then, author-nim! (づ￣ ³￣)づ

This is one of the best!

[(Anonymous)]

The whole story---what is this??? This is really really good! I don't know why it hasn't been given much attention but it's definetly one of the best fic written on BAE!!!!

Thank you authornim whoever you are. Can't wait for the reveals!!!!

SPOT

[pcyisbbhs.livejournal.com]

This seems intersting, I'll be back

[(Anonymous)]

gOD DAMN. I JUST LIKE HOW YOU WROTE IT. LIKE, I FELT EVERY WORD AND APPRECIATED EVERY WORD THAT HAS BEEN STATED. I WANTED TO SCREAM. SCREAM "CHANYEOL, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS BUY BAEKHYUN A FLOWER OH MY GOD" BUT I CAN'T.


I just. Oh my god. Okay. Breathes.


I'm good.

(park, flower is cheap. buy it asap)

[(Anonymous)]

I'm upset now. Like, really upset.
WHY DID YOU END IT JUST LIKE THAT!? I MEAN, WHY. i need a reassurance that they live happily after ever, even after all the stupidity chanyeol leftㅠㅠ

All along I've always take a note at the title of every story, all with like C - 5 or D - 8 or else and I am still confused of what is the purpose of that? help me to know bcs I am like a lost puppy here >ㅅ<

I can't quote my fav part bcs every words is my favorite!!!! I love every bits one of them♡ thankyou for writting this, authornim! ILY!!!♡♡♡

(park, flower is cheap. buy it asap)

[(Anonymous)]

I'm upset now. Like, really upset.
WHY DID YOU END IT JUST LIKE THAT!? I MEAN, WHY. i need a reassurance that they live happily after ever, even after all the stupidity chanyeol leftㅠㅠ

All along I've always take a note at the title of every story, all with like C - 5 or D - 8 or else and I am still confused of what is the purpose of that? help me to know bcs I am like a lost puppy here >ㅅ<

I can't quote my fav part bcs every words is my favorite!!!! I love every bits one of them♡ thankyou for writting this, authornim! ILY!!!♡♡♡

[getwellsoonbabykyung (from livejournal.com)]

OMG JESUS IVE READ MY NAME IS MEMORY SO MANY I COUKD PRACTICALLY TASTE IT IN MY MOUTH UNTIL NOW AND I HAVENT READ YOUR STORY YET BUT IM SO.EXCITED SO IM GONNA LEAVE A COMMENT FIRST AND OMGGFFF IM SOOOOO.EXCITED IVE BEEN WANTING TO WRITE AN AU FOR THIS STORY TOO BUT ITS HARD AND FINALLY I HAVE YOU OMG THANK YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOUUUUU

lovelyyy

[nurmalita titania (from livejournal.com)]

You slay meeee author nim!!!!! Your plots, your character describes, your twist, your happy ending YOUR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE PUT IN THIS STORY IS JUST AMAAAAZZZIIING AND YOU ARE THE ONE TO BLAME TO MY SWOLLEN EYES!! I was crying at the flower part, and my boombox accidently play CHANBAEK cover of bumkey i love you. And i cccrrryyyyyyy

[nurmalita titania (from livejournal.com)]

I will be forever thankful for you writing this whole beauty piece and SHOUT YOU OUTJ TO START YOUR OWN NOVEL!! It was so beauty, the metaphore, the poetic words, the way chanyeol regret and willing to try ugggh AUTHORNIM I LOVE YOU SOOO MUUUCCH SMOOCH!!